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Why I changed my last name


You’ve probably wondered who Ruchika T. Malhotra is, and if you’ve been signed up to some spammy email list before realizing that it IS a list you’ve previously subscribed to–mine–and I suddenly have a new last name.

 

I’ll be honest that this year has been replete with tough, emotional moments personally, alongside a 300+ day war in Palestine and in so many parts of the world.


So much heartbreak all around, so names feel like a trivial matter to some extent, and yet, has been the bane of my existence in the past few years.


I’ve agonized about changing my last name, especially the feminist implications of changing to my husband’s last name, the professional implications with a fairly Google-able profile, and also, what feels right to me. There’ve been no easy answers.


I wrote an OpEd about my decision, published this week by MSNBC. Here’s more of the reasoning below.



As many of you may appreciate, my first and last names have been mispronounced my whole life. By friends, work colleagues, and even emcees announcing me as an event’s keynote speaker to rooms of thousands. I entered my own book launch event with a huge sign outside that had both my names misspelled. Any time I’ve introduced myself to a Western audience, I’ve cringed. I know that mispronunciation and awkwardness are par for the course.

 

And now, just to make things more complicated, I decided to publicly change my last name. 

 

I’ve made a career of creating a sense of belonging through intention, stories and action. But I’ve been hiding a secret: my last name hasn’t provided me with a sense of familial or social foundation for a long time. 

 

In a world that doesn’t easily allow women, women of color, and those who are not public figures to change our minds, I am doing what I have said I’d never do as a feminist. 

 

I’m changing my last name to “Malhotra” to match that of my husband and my son. 

 

The reasons are complicated, and some of them I’m choosing to keep private. “Tulshyan” doesn’t resonate with me because it reminds me of the fraud and deceit of the man I inherited it from — my estranged father. 

 

I didn’t make this decision lightly.  

Like many professional, straight women who marry or who have become estranged from one or all members of their family of origin, I’ve wrung my hands thinking through the feminist implications of changing my name after establishing a public identity.

 

After years of agonizing about how to distance myself from a name that’s never quite fit — literally as podcast, upon article, upon blog post published with that very last name — the decision became crystal clear as I finished the last chapter of my next book, “Uncompete: Dismantling a Competition Mindset to Unlock Liberation, Opportunity, and Peace.” 


In it, I write: “In order to create a world that’s better than we found it, our decisions must be guided by the legacy we want to leave. As Jonas Salk reminds us to ask: ‘Are we being good ancestors?’”



The Malhotras


The good ancestor I’m striving to be for my 8-year-old son makes it urgent that we have the same last name. Simultaneously, I am grieving leaving my old name behind because of the bond of love I do have with the people who I once shared it with: my mother and siblings.

 

As a former journalist and the author of two books with a third on the way, my name is more Google-able than average and harder to pronounce than average.

 

Despite the accomplishments tied to it, I am changing it because I deserve a name that feels authentic to who I am and who I want to be, regardless of who it may inconvenience. 

 

Names can help us stand out. They can help us fit in. Mine have only done the former, and just as people started to recognize my name, I’m changing it. 

 

Our surnames often tell the world about our identity, offering clues about who we are, where we are from, our cultural background, and our family lineage. Our names reveal where we are in the human tapestry of race, ethnicity, class, gender, and — for better or worse — our families. 


I’ve talked about how pronouncing names correctly is a key foundation to being inclusive and anti-racist. The most commented section of a course I teach about inclusion is one where I talk openly about the shame I felt growing up with an unusual name and the path to reclaiming it. In short: I know that names really, really, really matter.

 

Forcing people of color to change their names to be more “Western” has been part of the assimilation playbook since colonial times.

 

Christian colonial missionaries in India, Africa and other parts of the world forced those they oppressed to change their names to become “less heathen.” The horrors of the residential boarding schools where American Indian and First Nation children were forcibly taken from their parents and coerced to “fit in,” including by adopting Western names, are well-documented. 

 

The tradition to take on our father’s names is deeply Western and patriarchal, stemming from the 15th century when wives were considered property. Not until the 1970s did many states make it easier for a woman to keep her pre-married last name.

 

Contrast this with other traditions, including the Khasi tribe in India, where children take their mother’s clan’s last name and women inherit land. Fluidity is common in the naming traditions of many Native American tribes, where children are given names according to their personalities. Their names can change throughout their lives to reflect their evolving identities and life circumstances.

 

We all become more free when we think beyond the binary forced upon us and choose names that empower us. Changing my name to Malhotra feels most reflective of me, not least because of my identity as a mother of color. 

 

My husband is a feminist and a loving role model for who I want my son to become. His name deserves to live on, more than my own father’s does.

 

While the younger me thought it was anti-feminist to take it on, I now realize how the choice to decide either way — even if it may cause confusion — is a hard-earned privilege.

 

If feminism is truly about choices, then this will be mine. It is a choice rooted in legacy, rather than accommodating white America with a more palatable-sounding name. That choice is something many people never experience, especially women from immigrant families.


If feminism is about agency, then I’ll be honest. I wish I had more than just two choices when it comes to my last name. Western society doesn’t make it easy to build and maintain a legacy within its constraints. Having to choose only between my father’s or my husband’s name for the sake of being more easily categorized feels deeply patriarchal and unfair. I’m grateful for the support and conversations with my mother, sister and women friends.



Some are instantly-identifiable authors and speakers, including some who changed their names. Each woman affirmed that I should focus on how my name made me feel and the legacy I hope to create for my son, rather than business or professional considerations. 

 

As I work through this private struggle in public, I hope it will allow more people, particularly those like me with uncommon names, to make more authentic choices.  

When I was introduced by my new name in a recent CNN interview, it felt surreal — like they were talking about someone else.  

But when I later watched the replay with my son, he pointed excitedly at the screen exclaiming, “Mum! You’re a Malhotra! Like me!” 

 

And at that moment, it felt just right.



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